I was worried and stressed. I actually cried thinking that I would have to return to work (Which may be my fate someday & that's OK if that's God's plan)
I felt sorry for myself when a story came on the news about million/billionaires from the stock market (Not that I want ANYTHING to do w the stock market---but still why do they get to make SO much money?)
I felt wronged, got mad and called the office to let them know how I felt. (It Didn't do any good)
^^^^^All of these things happened on the day I got the notice. I knew my worldly ways of anger, fear and envy would get me NO WHERE! So, I decided to give it all to my GOD and turned to prayer.
I prayed for my own situation and asked a few close family and friends to also remember us in prayer. I spent the next two months still anxious and stressed. Trying to think of ways I could bring money into our home. Should I serve a few shifts a week? Take on babysitting another child? Sell Pampered Chef? Cancel a few luxuries we have?
July 1st is fast approaching but my plan was to see how the first few months of this increased payment went before I put any serious plan into action. This is the amazing part of my story: Last night Ken came home and said his pay check was going to be $120 higher for the months of July-November because of a health care issue. When December comes this "credit" will have expired BUT our bill that is increasing is going to be reevaluated in December and I was told "will most likely decrease"! The second part of this story is I decided to cancel our gym membership which is $45month and our cable $55month.
Time to do the math: $120+$45+$55=$220!! You see, through these 3 events $220 a month will be saved! Remember $212 is what I was sooo stressed about! Haha, that's even $8 leftover! (I wouldn't be surprised if a different bill goes up by $8)
I am sharing this somewhat personal story to Encourage you! I knew from the beginning that I had to put faith in my Savior. I knew he would provide for my family, like he ALWAYS has. But it was my first reaction to turn to the ways of human nature. I still wanted to fix it myself and come up w a solution on my own like selling Pampered Chef (which there is NOTHING wrong with! I love love the product-just using as an example) I never would have imagined the extra money would come from health insurance! Ha! But He knew All Along!
He is my HOPE today and Always!
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